log 16

OK
Heard Agee rumors about friends
today and not only are they Lame
but Why anyone would think that
I give two shits about a rumor
about friends is beyond me!
And they rumors reinforce a
Double - Standard about men
and women
like... It's considered OK or COOL
for a man to sleep around
But when a woman does it
She's a Slut or a Whore...
...what the FUCK man!
People are people and they get
Horny and they have sex
so what the FUCK does it matter
if that's a man or a woman?!
People who create and perpetuate
Shit like this are Really Small
and need to get Shot!
SO
I'm gonna go buy a shotgun
Really!
It's just Stupid
geez
'let he who is without sin
cast the first stone'
Ya Know?
Anyway
That's all for Now, Space-Pals!
Remember: Life is Insane
Your Not!

log 15

WOW!
So it's been over a month since my
last post.
Just didn't want any posts being
about women or lack there of.
Suffice to say, no female action
right now and that's OK!
Wanna deal with my weight
Which is still around 315
( haven't weighed myself since
my last post )
But my cholesterol and glucose
levels are up so I'm on a chol.
medication and I'm just very
Feed up with myself.
How and why did I let things
come to This huh?!
just Weakness!
Anyway gotta get thin and healthy
so most posts will now be about
That
That's all for Now, Space-Pals!
Remember Life is Insane!
YOU'RENOT!

Log 14

OK
No more morose CRAP!
This is mostly
or Should be mostly
about my weight loss
which is going Well
Staying at 312 for a while
which is Good considering
the month
Year?
I've been having
BUT
I said I finished a small intro
for 'Tales'
Well I have also finished one
of the tales! YAY!
Don't have a title yet but it'll come
I'm gonna put it on my Mac
then anyone who wants to read
the rough
just email me!
So....There ya go!

log 13

OK
So it's hailing now
Been on/off rain and sun w/humidity
for most of the day.
Power went out at 2pm
back on at 5:20pm
now down again
due to Hail? I think so!
Soooooo.....goes with my mood
lately
Feels like I've been given a
Big Chore by God
and I'm getting the short end
of the deal
for the rest of my life
( yay power back! )
They say...whoever They are...
that crazy people don't know
that their crazy.
I think they do know and
That
Is what makes them crazy!
Anyway...Terminus Est

That's all for Now Space-Pals!
remember.....uh...maybe not today...

Additional:
I realize that this recent stuff
coincides with the situation
with this woman I work with
(bad English)
it has Nothing to do with her
It's all about me and my shit
and how I've had few gf's
and many rejections
and that I FINALLY realize Why
and that realization makes
SO MUCH SENSE(!)
and how ill never be the same
Sane?
Again

Terminus Est

log 12

Need a mature woman that wants me for Me...a Man.
but now I have to focus on my health
and fitness and writing
My Future
so a woman will be a bonus

Additional:
I feel like a large weight has been
lifted off me but it's bittersweet
I have to do things that make me
focus on Me
and that means some people
are going to get hurt
and some people will be mad
and some will hate
and I've set that up
so I can do what I Need to do
for me and my future.
It might be a lonely future
but, even as a kid as like an adult
Now, a relationship...a woman
in my life...
...has Always been an afterthought...
...God's Honest Truth

That's all for Now, Space-Pals!
remember: Life is Insane.
You're Not.

log 11

still awake
drank a lot of caffeinated soda today
so thats probably why

OK
interesting chain of events that lead me to being Very Happy today!

this whole thing with this co-worker just lead me to imagine
what it would be like, and how I would feel, to be with
the 'One, Right Woman'.
I imagined her as a blond
probably cause i been thinking about Marilyn recently
and that we Completely bonded and things just Fit together
like jigsaw puzzle pieces
and I realized that I would feel
like that scene in Disney's ALADDIN
he and Jasmine are on the balcony, they kiss, she leaves
and he says 'YES!' and falls backward onto Carpet
That's me! hehe
THEN
cause I imagined my woman as a blond
i thought about the first woman I fell in love with
Christy Fair
Her long, blond-blond hair,
her awesome face and how, when she smiled,
her whole face lit up!
OOOOHHH!
I remember her fondly.
Now I'll never see her again
and that's Cool
but its good to know that even though no woman
gives me a second thought now
( which is Good for now )
some women have been attracted to me
and have loved me!
It just makes me feel Really Good
and Happy!

of this co-worker, things are like they normally are
and I guess I never paid attention to it before
but we are just kind and civil to each other
don't go out of our way to talk to each other
and say little to each other
so I overreacted
and I do that sometimes
and that's Cool
at least no one got hurt
and I had a Good Sunday Work day
for the first time in a Long time!
so it's all Good!
SO
Life is getting Better!
I Fell Better about me, my weight, my life!
I'm writing More
and I feel Happier and More Confident about myself!
Good things coming!
I think that will be all for now, Space-Pals!
remember: Life is Insane. You're Not!

Log 10

So
Found out through a friend
that this woman isn't interested
in me and is dating someone.
Oh well...her loss...heh...and
she doesn't know it and
Probably never will.
It's all Good
SO
off to the Next Adventure!

Finished brief history of
Florentine and working on story
New one for "Tales"

Been watching Breaking Bad
the show is Awesome!
Almost done with season 3
Watchit!

That's all for Now, Space-Pals!
remember: Life is Insane.
Your Not